Primary school

I am part of twin.. Yes.. twins are special.. they are highly pampered and loved... So from young.. my parents have very unfortunately inculcated this narcissism in me... In many ways.. I have become a very overprotected an spoilt person..

I remember when I was in primary school... The first time I was thrown into a group of peers.. people my age... I was actually quite uncomfortable.. I was so used to being treated like a princess... I wanted people to listen to me when I spoke.. I demanded attention.. and of course.. its one teacher to a class of 36... its literally impossible to get her attention...

To cut the long story short.. my inability to assimilate into the environment has led me to become inevitably ostrasized at the very young age of 10. I remember feeling so lonely and left out.. the stark contrast between my pre-school years where adults showered their attention on me freely... However... there was something in me that developed during that point of time.. Unlike most people.. I developed an ability to revel in the joy of others...

When the kids refused to play or associate with me.. I would find myself a comfortable spot near the playground and observe the other children playing... when they said or did something funny.. I laughed.. I took a part of their cheer as my own.. and the strangest thing is.. I was not jealous of them at all.. In fact.. I appreciated their existance.. their ability to be happy brought me cheer.. So.. at a very young age of 10, I learnt that if ever your life gets too hard to bear.. there's always the other option of partaking in the happiness of others.. In fact... the more self-obsessed you are.. the more unlikely you are to find happiness.. but love... if you love others.. and their joy becomes your joy.. your joy will be endless.