Endurance

I love taekwondo. I love sparring. But there is so much I do not know... So much room for improvement.... I have a really feeble mind... I can't stand pain. It's one thing to be able to kick well when faced with a weaker or equal opponent. But when faced with a stronger opponent, with damn heavy kicks what do you do? Normally people will lose confidence and start kicking in a compromised manner... THAT is precisely the mistake we all keep making.

When you spar.. especially with a stronger opponent.. you must be ready to feel the pain... not just any pain.. but the kind of pain that paralyses you momentarily... You need to mentally prepared.. when you attack.. be prepared for the pain.. and be fully committed to attack no matter heavy the kick is.. You got to endure the pain and just keep going...

S0 taekwondo... just as life.. is not about physical skills.. it is alot about the mind.. about learning how to endure great pain and still function at your optimum even if it is under great stress or pain... Do not be fooled into surrendering.. Do not lose confidence and come up with a sub standard kick.. Keep on going.. Keep on going at your optimum...

You know.. life is just like that too.. Somewhere along the way... we are bound to meet up with other strong opponents... and the truth is.. it's going to hurt... but you just got to be strong enough to withstand the blows and continue functioning normally.

It is not a very tolerant society we live in... I noticed... that when you are upset.. and you start behaving badly.. people are not compassionate enough to tolerate your bad behavior.. plus the fact that people like to block out 'complicated' people.. you are going to be totally black listed if you choose to sulk at a problem... (well, at least it's been like that for me).. Therefore.. it is when you are the most upset.. when life throws the biggest pieces of shit at you that you have to behave at your best... seriously.. it is at this vulnerable state that you cannot stand being side lined or ostrasized... you will go crazy... Therefore.. to prevent that.. you better learn how to funciton well even when you are upset... i mean especially when you are upset.. you cannot stand anymore trauma...

Well.. this theory is also fundamentally flawed as there is another secret moving force in this equation.. People tend to be put off by other people who seem confident and steady.. They think that such people have no problems and are therefore different from them... That is already sufficient reason to hate and start abusing and challenging these people... However, what if these people are pretending to be happy.. what if these people are experiencing a pit hole in their lifes? Wouldn't pretending to be ok backfire on them?

Well.. Life is just so complicated ain't it? The thing is.. between the two.. i still choose to pretend that I am happy. I mean.. everyone has a right to put up a false front right... and there is always the saying... fake it until you make it.... So.. I will definitely not go around bragging about my problems hoping for sympathy... instead i will keep it under cover and go on behaving normally and happily... at least this would help me secure another area of my life... while one area flies out of the window...

Sigh... this is another case of thinking too much.. well at least.. when I write it down... the thought is immortalised.. Perhaps.. I will wonder what made me the way I was.. and when I refer back to this blog entry.. I will understand...