Privacy

I love Baileys... the 17% alcohol content Irish Creme.. So sweet.. so alcoholic... It slows down the thoughts raging in my genius brain. I believe actually kills brain cells too... Well.. that might not be such a bad idea since the thing causing me pain now is actually only pointless thinking.

I value privacy alot. I remember about 4 years ago I had two blogs - A private blog and a not so private blog. Of course.. the private blog was where I poured out all my emo tendencies in an unabashed manner. It was only for the viewership of a few. Unfortunately, my genius brain malfunctioned and my sister got to know about that URL for that private blog. And before you know itlll all my distance relatives were reading that blog and contacting my parents to see if I was mentally sound. Sounds bad... when I confronted her.. she non-chalently read out the contents of my blog (which she memorised) to my parents. So you see... I thought I learned my lesson. NEVER EVER disclose anything in writing that you don't want the entire world to know.

Sadly.. these were the events that followed. My friend called me and conveniently placed me on speaker phone without my knowledge... said a whole load of embarassing things like... "It's ok.. I will come over seduce him then you can get all her attention." Shit like that that was meant as a joke. All broad casted to a bunch of people I hardly knew. Needless to say.. I am no longer talking to that guy.

Of course this was followed by the traumatic event where my declaration of love.. in the form of an sms was disclosed to the world in the most inhumane way. It was type written by the one i sent the message to AKA the one I used to l0ve ... and photocopied and highlighted and given out like a worksheet to a group of about 20 people.

So as it appears... I didn't learn my lesson and I am making the same mistakes over and over again. Well.. Yes i am.. and creating this blog is one of them. Heck it... To preserve the privacy I so value.. I did so much.. but no one around seems to respect it at all... They seem to take my private issues.. in fact.. my entire existance as a joke.. So I make a finally brave decision. I should learn to live with myself. No more secrets.... It appears that God has the talent of taking away everything I love and value... So the key to preservation is simply to show disregard to all that I value... including privacy.. mind blowing eh? That means that.. if there is a secret I wish to protect... Say it.... Do it before someone else beats you to it... At least.. I can live life hating one person less.

Please forgive me... This blog was written under the influence of Baileys.