Giant palm

Was lying on bed trying to fall asleep again... (Somehow I feel that I sleep to escape from reality).. An image popped into my head... an image of me rolling around a giant palm... I heard God telling me... "No matter how much you screw up, no matter how ugly you think you are, you will never escape my love for you. You are always in my hand. And don't be upset with the world. They are all little children in my eyes. Everyone is equally helpless. So don't count their sins against them, because I love them too. As much as I love you, and I know they can't possibly enjoy your wrath. You are built to love not to hate. You are built to perform best in my love not the love this world can provide. So stop looking for love in the wrong place, come to me."

Gwen still irritates me. And she really hurts me too. But as I think about how big Jesus is... and how forgiving he is... that even when he was totally destroyed and totally abused and injured on the cross.. he could not hate... I feel ashamed of myself... If you think that your own forgiveness.. your own love is not enough to forgive and to love some people.. then use the love of Jesus to love them.. use the forgiveness of Jesus to forgive them.. Remember... that if you depend on yourself.. you get humanly results.. but when you depend on the unending, overflowing power and grace of God.. you get Godly results...