Some random thoughts

PA-STF tournament is finally over... Did well... Did very well in fact...in my own opinion.. It is really is the LORD carrying me through the game... Serious.. with all my injuries... and severe lack of experience... I was able to perform.... To God be the Glory!

It's remarkable how much closer I am to my club buddies nowadays.. Really feel the bonding.. But I know that it is not with my effort that all this was achieved.. it is all God and nothing me... I must always remember that.. and whatever God has established... no one can destroy... So I will not be threatened by whoever or whatever that tries to come in and wreak madness... my faith is in the LORD...

It is when you are facing real challenges.. or new things... that you realise how vulnerable you actually are.. you start to realise that without God.. you are nothing.. and we all need to have this constant reminder to keep us close to God.. So when in doubt.. always remember to try new things... move out of your comfort zone... the further you move from it.. the closer you are to God.... (arguable, another blog entry)

When God closes a window, he opens a door... I know, I know, it is a cheesy line.. but it is true... it is true... well, for bigger, obvious things like relationships.. moving from one guy to another... or jobs.. moving from one job to another... it might be a cliche.. but the truth is... this is the principle that applies to many other knitty gritty areas of your life...

Picture this.. daredevil... the Marvel comic strip hero.. he lost his eye sight.. but all his other senses were heightened... If you think about it... he is just a blind man.. but no.. he achieved so much more than that.. he became the fearsome superhero... Well, all this doesn't sound quite convincing eh? Even I'm not convinced.. and I am writting this.. haha

I guess what I am driving at is the prevalent lack of respect for bad experiences... We look upon the dark past of our seniors and judge them... some of us, the more idealistic of the lot, will choose to delude ourselves and convince ourselves that the bad past is just a bad ugly mistake.. all you have to do is to ignore it and move on with life..

This sadly, does not give due credit to the importance of that piece of experience in that person's life.. Because... surely.. we are what we are today because of what we were yesterday.. we are where we are now.. because of the road that lies behind us (from matrix reloaded)

I have never seen anyone learn anything great from success or honorable experiences... It is the embarrassing and humiliating mistakes we make.. the times we fall... that teaches us most... and so many of the time... we make such great mistakes that we find it even hard to forgive ourselves.. but once we learn to come into terms with our folly.. and realise how small we actually are in God's gigantic puzzle.. these bad experiences serve to humble and remind us.. that however much we struggle.. and however flawless our plans are... we are nothing without God...

Furthermore, these dark experiences would certainly deter you from judging others from a position of self-righteousness.. Because you truly start to understand.. that underneath it all.. we are all the same.. helpless humans lost to the world... You will start to give God his due place in the puzzle...and understand his power and greatness...

Perhaps... our time on earth is just the time given to us to discover God and discover who we really are as God's beloved.. man... perhaps god created all of us... with the intention of prospering us and training us into great men.. but even more so.. to train us into humble children of God...

There is one proverb that left an impression on me.. it says that no establishment can be established based on wickedness and that the center of every institution is righteousness... yes... so I am certain that there is still good the place I left behind.. and not only good but great goodness.. Just understand this.. there are two main forms of righteousness...

1) self righteousness
2) Righteousness based on the blood of Jesus

Any establishment must have either one to sustain.. and its leader confident either in himself or in God... Of course.. I am for the latter.. because I understand that underneath it all.. we are just humans.. helpless children of God... we falter sometimes.. but God never falters.. and it is in him that I trust...