Steven King & God

This is going to be a difficult blog to write... It's about two seemingly unrelated matters.. Steven King and the spreading of christianity... But of course.. who can tell the genius brain of mine how to work.... it links seemingly unrelated matters... while.. in awhile you will know... of course only if you read on...

I was on the plane back from my ridiculous short one week holiday to Australia.. Yes.. it was a quantas plane.. and if I recall correctly... the entertainment system is one of the best in the world. It allows you to choose from a selection of many many movies of which you are able to pause (in case you need to pee pee), fast forward or rewind... Yes.. given between the option of so many many many movies.. I found myself choosing 'The mist'... A Steven King movie. Apart from being narcissistic and self-obsessed... I find myself helplessly drawn towards the more morbid espects of life.. Yes.. Of course I am afraid of boogie men and monsters.. but the most interesting aspect of Steven King is his ability to confront the greatest evil of this world.. the one that resides in man... yes.. Steven King has this ability to write stories revolving around the greatest secret of all history.. that mankind is really a helpless pathetic species that when confronted with difficult times... EVERYONE children and adults alike freak out and start exibiting all kinds of selfish and suicidal tendencies..

As the story goes... A town is engulfed by this alien mist... A military experiment has opened a portal to another world releasing a strange alien mist carrying with it all kinds of scary creatures... So a large group of people are trapped in a super market.. One of them gets killed by a alien with tenticles... The others eventually start to freak out... Some of them hang themselves.. Some take loads of sleeping pills... The others afraid and emotional unstable decided to believe the lie of this 'christian' enthusiast who claims that she's a messenger from God. She inspires the crowd to attack a military officer and sacrifise him to the monster by shutting him outside the supermarket.. They watched him die and all thought that he deserved it. The few remaining sane people managed to escape.. So drove and drove in the mist.. There were 5 of them in the.. When they ran out of petrol... and no one else was in sight, the male protagonist took out of the gun and under the consent of all the rest in the car.. shot them all dead.. But there was only 4 bullets.. Just as he was trying to kill himself in another fashion.. help arrived.. military tanks started appearing.. But everyone that mattered to him was already dead... He killed them... The show ended with him screaming and sobbing to himself.

Bleak.. Very bleak... only 50% of all the deaths in the movie was caused by the aliens.. the other 50% were suicide or outright murder by the frighthened humans.. Sort of nails us doesn't it? Under the composed, responsible adult front of ours.. we are so uncontrollably frightened, daunted and repelled by things that we do not understand.. Envision this.. The germans.. after WWI... they were frigthened.... they were humiliated and they were without a proper leader... It was at this vulnerable state that Adolf Hitler found them and gave them a direction. He convinced them that euthanasia and the killing of Gypsies, Jews and other none Aryan people is the only way to purify the race and achieve their ultimate happiness. They were scared shitless and humiliated beyond reason (no more ego).. so of course.. they bought it.. they bought all of it. Yes.. this led to the holocaust.. Jews dissappearing like flies.. It wasn't disease or necessity that killed them.. it was other men.

So Steven King simply plays with our awareness of the human capacity to commit such atrocities to frigthen us shitless with the stories he write. Yes.. ghosts and boggie men can be frightening.. but what can be more frightening than man himself?

You know.. afterall.. human beings.. after centuries of being dissapointed by one another have trained himself to self- protect by simple learning how to think negatively.... So when you come up to a woman and say "All men sucks." You actually get an applause... and you sit down and start a customary bitching session on how men suck. Nothing new. But when you actually approach a person with good news.. you will be surprised with how the person reacts. He actually gets put of. Serious... This is because... after all the damage previous humans have done to the ego.. to the mind of this person... he/she have finally convinced himself that there is no hope.. and thinking otherwise only lead to dissapointment.. It is precisely this human tendency to block out hope that makes preaching God's word to them so difficult.. Days.. months.. years before you get to them.. they are already totally hopeless.

I ask you.. I ask myself... How many nights has it been that i have cried myself a sleep hoping that some one comes and rescue me. I pray and pray that God sends an angel down to rescue me.. and days pass... months fly by.. years just whooses by.. and I find myself completely utterly hopeless. So when the day finally comes... when a kind soul approaches me to introduce Jesus to me.. I find myself angry... I find myself saying. "What the hell! You are like 5 years late! Are you trying to convince me there is good in this stinking rotting hell of an earth? You give me hope just to dissapoint me? Go to hell, I don't want to hear about your Jesus. He's bullshit."

Seriously.. This is why I seriously don't blame anyone for slamming me at all. Afterall.. all of us are used to taking bad news. We watch Steven King movie and agree that yes... in a bad situation we all freak out... Yes.. We are all scumbags.. Yes... there is no hope for us... Then let me ask you... what about those germans who risk their lifes protecting Jews during the holocaust? What about the countless number of mothers who sacrifised their lifes for their babies? What about Jesus who died on the cross for all the sins we have committed? Aren't we giving them any credit at all? Yes.. we may be a stinking rotting race.. but the truth is.. one thing mediates all that shit in us.. and that thing is.. LOVE. =)

It is love that makes all things beautiful.. It is love that heals all wounds... And love is so much more powerful than hate. Serious.. and as pastor prince puts it.. love is not only an emotion its a person.. Jesus Christ. So... I am issuing a challenge to you now.. I want you to prepare yourself for good news.. Because I am going to tell you something that's going to heal you of all your diseases.. all your wounds. More than that.. it will forgive you of ALL your sins.. redemn you from ALL destruction and bless your mouth with good things that you youth might be renewed like the eagles.

Ok.. I am getting ahead of myself... I need to write about this.. Yes.. it may utterly ruin the bad girl image that i am trying to portray in writing but I will risk it anyway... The truth is.. I am not God.. I am only human.. so it's ok if I am bad.. its expected.. but with the power and love of God.. even someone as pathetic as me can make a good difference in this world...

"It was love that caused God to send Jesus his only son to die for us on the cross." This is when people start getting defensive and slamming with their religion or the classic free-thinkers logic. But today.. fortunately.. I need not tolerate all that.. Because HAHA I am writing a blog.. NO ONE CAN SHUT ME UP HERE. HAHAHAHA

Ok. I deviate... It was love that caused God to send Jesus to die on the cross for us... That is the basis of it ALL. The problem with us, christians, is that we underestimate the power of this sacrifise.. You see.. the old testiment claims that God is a perfect God that cannot tolerate sin. He demands a payment for every sin committed... and men can't control themselves from sinning.. So men were required to sacrifise bulls and goats to God on a yearly basis to appease God. However.. that wasn't a permanent solution.. the permanent solution there was only one. To sacrifise Jesus. When Jesus came... he fulfilled the law and all the commandments.. he was without sin.. However.. his purpose was not only to fulfil the law but to die in place of you and me so that he pays the complete price for all our sins. It was a finished job.. He came died and paid the price. What's left for us to do is simply that Jesus is our lord and savior and recieve our salvation..

This is where many christians get it wrong. So Jesus died for all your sins up to the point where you acknowledge him and confess all your sins. So you have a clean slate now.. Don't screw it up again.. This is so erroneous.. Serious.. There's no such thing. The truth is.. ALL of your sins.. now and forever.. all forgiven.. and the forgiveness is not on the basis of whether you confess your sins or not.. its whether you know that Jesus is your lord and savior. Imagine.. it is literally impossible to CONFESS ALL YOUR SINS.. you are bound to forget one or two. Does that mean you can't enter heaven if you forgot to confess stealing a rubber from the bookshop when you were 10? It's ridiculous.

Remember this.. God sees you as a child.. Whether you are 8 or 80 years old.. You are always a child in his eyes... And if he loves you enough to send his only son to die for you... what more will he withhold from you.... You are his beloved son/daughter.. Go ahead.. the world is yours.. Go out and do what pleases you.. no blessing is out of reach.... Stop restricting yourself and convincing yourself that... I am nothing but a lowly bastard.. I don't deserve this girl.. she is too good for me.. nonsense... stop sabotaging your own happiness! You are not a lowly bastard.. you are a prince of God.. Similarly.. go and eat and drink to your fill.. don't let Jesus's death be in vain. One more piece of good news is that what Jesus has done is a finished work. It is complete.. It is done. There is nothing more you can do to gain reconciliation with God. You are already reconciliated with God. When God sees you... he sees Jesus.. and he loves you as if you were sinless.

The thing most of us do not know is that.. we all long to have Jesus in our lifes. We want to be rescused.. we want to be loved... and we confuse this desire to be loved with the desire to get into a BGR. We imagine that our girlfriend/ boyfriend is able to provide for us the love we desire.. However... this love can only be found in Jesus... So read the bible... understand more about Jesus. Serious.. and for all of you out there who have never read the bible.. start with the new testament - Mark, Matthew, Luke and John... followed by the letters by apostle John... ephesians etc.

Alrighty.. running out of concentration... Will get back to talking about Jesus another day =) Till then. Take care my friends.