Organ damage

Colourless green ideas sleep furiously.. Heard that in the pshychology lecture.. Found it beautiful.

Something weird's been happening to me in the past two days. It's just like something in my very center core has been switched off. Much like an organ is switched off. And now I have to learn how to live without that organ. I used to steer clear from cold food you see. I told myself that I wanted my knees to recover so I can fight well. Now, when I look at cold food. I am conflicted. I thought to myself.. I have no reason to abstain from these foods anymore. Then I realised how screwed my mind as become. I have associated the need to keep healthy and fit with tkd. Once I am out, and not selected, I feel like I no longer want to keep healthy and fit. My knees can rot away for all I care.

My thinking:

Cold food = Bad for TKD
No TKD = is cold food still bad?

Reality

TKD = Good for health
Cold food = Bad for health
No cold food= Good for health

So there is actually no real link. Though I am not fighting AUG, I should still look after my knees. Afterall, the purpose of TKD is suppose to be to keep fit anyway. No point overlooking that by being too obsessed with setting goals and winning all the time.

So Denise. Persevere. Be good to yourself. Don't give up looking after yourself.