Emotional outburst

Something great happened.... I am going for AUG... well.. most probably... but I don't want to be so happy just as yet.. cannot be sure if it really will happen.. Whatever it is.. please pardon me as I express my great joy in the following emotional outburst.

I AM SO HAPPY!!! SO HAPPY!!! GOD, YOU FINALLY DID SOMETHING!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! OH MY GOD.. I AM SO HAPPY!!! SO HAPPY!!! HAVEN'T BEEN SO HAPPY IN AGES!!! SUFFERED SO MUCH!! AND NOW I FEEL THAT ITS ALL WORTH IT!!! SO IT IS TRUE, PRAYERS DO GET ANSWERED!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!

Ok, with that said, IAM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY. For such a long time, I totally gave up hope that God would do anything but inflict me with more challenges and trials... and on the night I gave up hope on God and totally believed that there is no one on earth and in heaven loves me, God finally answered!!! I was so sad I was ready to die. I cried so much that I had a terrible headache the next day. And then a miracle happened. The sports officer sent us the list of fighters. And my name was on it. For a moment, I didn't know how to react. I decided not to believe it.. But now, after 5 days.. the truth has finaly sunk in.. I am going for AUG!!! I am going to fight!!!! OMG... I am so happy!!! I can finally fight my first international tournament.. I can train with the national squad... and I have the chance of bringing a medal back for Singapore.. I AM SO SO SO HAPPY!! It's like striking lottery.

I endeavour to train even harder now that I know that I can go... I want to go and bring something back... For my parents who funded all my TKD fees... For Shifu who believed in me despite all the bad influences.. For Mam who rubber banded me to today's fitness and most importantly.. for God.. who saved my life...

I hope that through my success.. people out there would know that it doesn't matter how many times you fall... as long as God is with you.. you will rise up stronger than before... I want to show the world taekwondo is not only about trashing people and winning medals but also about perservering despite all circumstances.. It's about enduring all kinds of humiliation and pain and still having enough guts to stay alive with dignity...


It is the hard times that really show the character of a person... Anyone can be cheerful and positive when everything is going fine.. but when things start getting choppy.. that's when you need real faith to put on a smile and go on with life... I love taekwondo.. I really love taekwondo alot...